Find the Message in the Chaos
There is usually a message in the chaos. Not the chaos in Denver, Minneapolis, Milwaukee, Portland, Oakland and New York after the presidential election. I’m referring to the chaos that comes to each of us. Internal confusion and racket in the brain drives me to tears. Conflicting thoughts, chronic fatigue and brain fog make it impossible to function in my world.
Caroline Myss who wrote Entering the Castle, an Inner Path to God and Your Soul says chaos comes with a message.
According to Myss, “To a mystic, chaos is an organic expression of the divine. . .Divine chaos cannot be stopped, manipulated, postponed, or bargained with. It is an impersonal yet very intimate force of seduction. It sweeps into your life, taking charge of your life path and redirecting you according to its own plan—not yours.” (135)
When we are able to see the divine in our personal chaos we’ve reached a higher plane.
For me the acute pain of a divorce that I did not want was chaos on steroids. Everything about it seemed wrong. Honestly even today it’s not easy for me to see the divine in it. I only saw division. Faith kept me sane. What could have been isn’t what would have been if my first husband and I had stayed married. I know that now.
The chaos in our lives carries with it a message we often miss. We don’t choose to see it. We prefer to not acknowledge it. We resist. Myss says, “Fighting change is the same as fighting your guidance. Instead, learn to listen, prepare and act.” (137)
Change is always around the corner. We are all aging, as are our children. Seasons change and so do we.
In 2009 Mary Cannon gave me a book she said she was “led” to give me. Entering the Castle changed my life. It is a guide to the life and times of St. Teresa of Àvila. As I write this Mary is dying due to a brain tumor. She is a rare soul. Praying with her was a remarkably deep spiritual experience that I will not forget.
The book has been an open door for me to change that matters. It increased my innermost desire to know more, to hear clearly, to surrender and trust the voice within.
Jen Hatmaker writes in Interrupted: When Jesus Wrecks Your Comfortable Christianity, “Most of us look at change as a threat. And why not? It’s foreign and jacks up what we know and like. It makes the consistent inconsistent. It typically removes comfort. But change is not a threat. It’s a fact.”
Chaos, as well as change, can bring transformation. It can bring small change, great change, beginnings and endings.
During my divorce I had tiny glimmerings of positive change. They came and died away like the stroke of a falling star. I couldn’t hold them. The darkness took over. I hope I’ve learned to recognize divine messages whether they come softly or with shock and awe.
My soul yearns to be a sacred vessel.
What does your soul yearn for?
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“Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn, whatever state I may be in, therein to be content.” – Helen Keller
Gail raised three children as a single mother before she remarried. She has experienced the potholes, pests, and perils of being the single head-of-household. As an educator in regular and special education for twenty years she knows a great deal about child development and how to handle kids. She is the founder of SMORE for Women, a nonprofit whose goal is Single Moms, Overjoyed, Rejuvenated, and Empowered. She is a Certified Professional Coach and her stories have been published in several Christian books and magazines. Her book, Living Learning Loving is available on CreateSpace, Amazon, and Barnes and Noble online.